Saturday morning is always a good time for me to do some reflecting. Reflecting on the week and my life journey. This Saturday morning I’m in a funky mood because of rejection. I’m use to rejection, I’ve had plenty of it from jobs to relationships but for some reason this most recent one really pissed me off.
You might have heard that I’ve launched my own podcast with Samy K aka a jester with a squirrels penis, that’s how he referred to himself in the latest podcast. We’ve been doing it for two months now and it’s going better than I had ever imagined.
Maybe that’s why when I submitted the podcast to a major podcast platform I was expecting more of the same excitement we’ve been experiencing but that didn’t happen. I was told the opposite, that the podcast wasn’t the right fit for the company after they listened. It’s fine but for some reason it stung harder than past rejections, and has sent me into a spiral of doubt and questioning if I need to change.
URGH…I hate that. How can you be so confident and sure of yourself one day and the next feel like…is what I’m putting out good enough? Do people get to the point where they’re confident all the time and rejection truly doesn’t bother them? That would be amazing.
I think I’m upset because it’s so personal this time. Never in my life have a I cared and felt so excited and sure of what I was doing. The podcast is the perfect fit for Samy and me. It’s the perfect combination and what we’re doing is something so different from anything we’ve done before. Funny, inspiring, a diary of our lives mixed with pop-culture, live from the DC Improv.
I know there’s a reason for everything and when one door closes another opens but can that door open this minute!? Ha…there’s Sunday’s blog: Learning to be Patient.
Thanks for reading and have the best day. Your kind words, support, and constant good vibes ALWAYS remind me I’m on the right track.
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