Girl on Her Way up: Ambivalence Will Kill Any Dream

 

Ambivalence is not a good trait and I’ve been ambivalent lately. I’m sure you know the meaning but here’s the definition…

Definition: having mixed feelings about someone or something; being unable to choose between two (usuallyopposing) courses of action:

It’s really not a good trait when you live in NYC. Recently I’ve been on the fence about job offers, offers to go back to DC, a freelance gig in NYC, an agent I’m not in love with. I’ve felt like a ship without a rudder, so I brought it up to my mindful living therapist Robin this week and she said to me…’have you heard the story about the man in the flood who thought God would save him?’

 I Sent You a Rowboat

A very religious man was once caught in rising floodwaters. He climbed onto the roof of his house and trusted God to rescue him. A neighbor came by in a canoe and said, “The waters will soon be above your house. Hop in and we’ll paddle to safety.”

“No thanks” replied the religious man. “I’ve prayed to God and I’m sure he will save me”

A short time later the police came by in a boat. “The waters will soon be above your house. Hop in and we’ll take you to safety.”

“No thanks” replied the religious man. “I’ve prayed to God and I’m sure he will save me”

A helicopter came by as well but the man answered, “I’ve prayed to God and I’m sure he will save me”

Eventually the floodwaters reached the roof and the man drowned. When he got to heaven he said, “Lord, why am I here in heaven? I thought you would save me.”

“Yes you did my child” replied the Lord. “And I sent you a canoe, a boat and a helicopter. But you never got in.”

 Ahhh…a light bulb went off. I’ve been looking for the absolute perfect job situation, perfect agent, perfect city, waiting for God to save me… This wake up call came last week and I realized, just like when I first moved to DC, I need to parlay handing out T-shirts into becoming a talk show host (Ok, maybe something a little different but you get it). So this week I’ve been putting my foot on the gas on things I was taking for granted three months ago. It sounds crazy but I think I was caught up in the…’well, what are they gonna do for me? I deserve this, I want a guarantee this will workout.’ 

Things have always worked out in my life when I’ve known what I wanted, but you have to know what you want or at least the direction you want. Jump in and make a decision.

In my case I’m upping the ante, time to leave the security and comfort of the uncles apartment in Stamford and do what I came to NYC to do. Live, work, and thrive in Manhattan. So I decided I’m moving out by July. Tax return money came back and that should give me a small start. 

I hope if you too are going thru an ambivalent moment in your life you jump in or jump out. Up the ante, I think amazing things will happen when you set a course of action and take ACTION. 

Let me know if you’ve gone thru an ‘ambivalent period’ – what were you on the fence about?

Email me anytime anything: sarah@heyfrase.com 

XO, Frase 

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